after looking back at it. realize there's many thing has been changed. the way it speaks, the way it act and the words it used. i cant recall what makes all these things change. the only thing i can remember is, is not necessary. today, thinking back bout it. i find it a bit stupid. how can things will be not necessary unless you just don't wanna do it. or the words were wasn't said through the true feelings. sometimes, it do really confused me. but knowing the fact that it may not be thing that you will do, still somehow wish it will happen at times.

finally she's back. i dont know what will that makes you think. sometimes curiosity will just make you make the first step. in a way, i wish you could find out the answer that you always wanted to but at the same time afraid things will turn into downhill after that. still trying to stop the thoughts in my head, but i just cant help it.