negative postive

suppose to be doing my homework now. but cant get my mind focus. shit. too many things bothering me. well, maybe is just one thing. cant really hear myself screaming tho im screaming out loud. no one will understand. as simple as that. exhausted by people keep telling me things. laughter is just the physical side of me. dont think i can handle that any longer enough. just like batteries, it will be all fully used up one day. who will be my charger then? to refill my energy...

no one will understand, seriously..

is always that easy to give people advice or comfort. but when people ask you back a simple question " what bout you? how are you?" shit. damn. automatically, "im good" or "nothing" will just come out from your mouth no matter how hard you wanna share. guess, im just emo-ing myself..