suppose to post it up on that day itself but my mind goes blank on that time. couldn't think of anything to write. after the final decision is answered, my heart is like beating real slow. was aspecting a tears will drop or feeling glad about it. but none of it were achieve. couldn't feel anything at all..

called today. i was really surprise that he called up. but doesnt know why my mouth doesnt work with my brain. my brain was wanted to say a big "HI" but end up by saying, "bloody hell, having test later, call me back later.." damn. screwed. gone. angela never been like that no matter how busy in she. guess, she was just too worried bout her exam. really sorry lil man.


the first day of class after the cny break, nothing seems to be different physically. but knew it do effects us alot. one of them feeling empty which still cannot accept the facts; one of it been just keeping it deep inside and dare not say a thing; on of them are still pissed; one of them is just tired of things, have to accept the facts. been talking bout it after the class. didn't know it actually affect us so much. thought it'll be only missing the person. too many things left for us. guess, there's no what else left. there's only what else are taken.

guess, the decision made is a better choice afterall. we rather see the hot and lame once instead of seeing it getting more emoness.

it's raining out here. used to said that i'll be turning hot while raining. sigh. guess, it's a past. is like without a joker, there wont be a joke.

there too many things left here..and yet, there's too many things taken away..

shall we let the last day we meet as a happy ending? or tearing ending?

take care u lil man. im glad tht my range include you.. no regrets