up and down

this is the most common tittle ever. but the 3 words already tell you 80% of it. either is about relationship, frenship, family or everything which around you.

having my finals now. thought i'll be super hardworking. but things doesnt goes that way. part of me feel like just drop down from the sky without thinking anything; part of me is like cant give up that easily cause this is gonna decide my future. "future" is on my hand now, how can i just let it be like that? lucky i wasn't in a relationship now, if not, things will get even worst. but unlucky, relationship is not the one which bringing my mood down but yet, frenship is the one.

thought both of us will be that strong and tough. but seems like is not. i shouldn't been thinking all by my own. should have care more bout people around me. but, i did and i always do. isn't that is enough? i guess is not... finals really can drive people crazy.. when there's something happen on that time, you just feel like everything is all screwed up!!!

been trying really hard to avoid things. trying super hard, so that there wont be anything happen which can distract me easily. cant blame. I'm a person who cares bout my frens alot. did try to be a mean person but it doesn't work. the nicest part of me always cover it up. so, is that why people taking advantage of it? i guess so..

make it simple. trying not to make things more complicated. but yet, things still don't go my way.. it always went to an opposite way. can i ask why?! why cant just leave me alone? at least till my finals end??

didn't really speak bout my problems to anyone cause people might be thinking I'm crazy or I'm over acting. hrm, maybe is true but this is me. why cant angela be emo as well???

arghh~oh my god!!! enough for now. i guess, my bed will be the best solution.

baboon, leave me alone for a moment. i'm sick of it. thx ..