you remind me..
out of the blue, someone appeared in my mind. not to say his a very good friend of mine but his a friend who i always wanted to know more bout him. he was my ex. did i just mention 'was'? yea, i did. the reason why i said 'was' is because now, i don't take that as a relationship or my past because I'd played a third-party in that relationship, plus, it did not last long. i take it as a reason to avoid being alone at that moment. silly huh? or maybe we both just met in the wrong time and taking both of us as a reason to avoid some stuff/feeling. there's one thing is true, which is on that moment, i did fell in to the love river. bout him i doesn't know.
the first thing i know bout him was, his a big fan of Jay Chou. from that moment, i tried to figured out why he likes Jay so much.plus, it's kinda random to see guys actually do have a idol who is a guy. some people might think it's really gay but some people found it was cool to have an idol in their mind. stat from that minute, I'd been searching all the profiles bout Jay and even listen more about his music. there's a lot of different point of view to his music and his person thru' the blog bout Jay that i read. some people don't get what's his music means;some people just love his music without a reason. but there is some people who just like to follow the way Jay Chou are.
from his music, is not easy to understand actually. unless, you have the same feeling as the writer of the song. but, after listen it again and again, you'll started to understand how the music flows and the meaning of the lyrics.it do take some time actually. this is what i get. anyway, this is my first time listen to music into a serious way. from his person, as everyone know, his a person who don't talk much. especially when come to his private stuff. he always want people to focus more into his music than his private stuff but the paparazzi just can't stop their curiosity. sad-ness~* i wouldn't say i know well bout Jay but i will say, the way of his music, it's really different from the other singer. no offence, i doesn't mean the rest of the singer doesn't do well in their music. i would say different people have different way of singing and music style. but the Jay Chou way, it's really different. usually the music (rhythm) that i listen are more alike the same. please don get me wrong, i don't mean that I'm standing up for Jay it just a feeling of mine towards his music.
enough for Jay, back to the person who appeared. yes, i would say in someways, his personality do like Jay in someway. he don't talk much as well. perhaps I'm wrong. he seems very mysterious. seems like there's thousand words hiding inside him. seems like there's alot of responsibility need him to carry. in some way, he seems like afraid of something. maybe i don't know much bout him.
playing a character of boyfriend, although it was a short time, can see that he actually take things seriously. can see that he actually need a person to be with who can make him feel safe and even to be trust. he seems tough outthere but can see his actually quite week inside him. his a guy who never tell people bout his problem unless you're a very good fren of his. but i bet it'll be hard to be a good friend of his. he do thinks a lot sometimes. but he always used the way of "avoid" to avoid the facts or to avoid the thoughts been appeared in his mind. but overall, i would say his a nice guy. he can be a perfect boyfriend. I'm serious tho.
playing a character of friend, actually, i prefer more being a friend. his a guy who actually do know how to tell jokes. his a friend who can talk anything you want but never ever ask him bout his private stuff.( what i mean was, just only friends talking.) once you did, the environment will turn to O Celsius. not kidding~ he doesn't like people ask him bout it. plus, he doesn't like to explain or even talk bout it. maybe I'm still a stranger to him. i do enjoy being his friend. it just that, i still doesn't consider as his friend yet. maybe I'm wrong. there's a lot of question that i wanted to question him but i cant. the only thing to know more bout him, i bet there will be only figure it out by yourself.
people ask me do i still have feelings towards him. i respond it by saying " nope". i have this strange feeling toward him. till now, I'm still confused what it is. but i can guarantee that feeling wasn't a crush or anything to do with love. it just a feeling of curious. I'm so curious every single thing bout him. the reason is because i never met a guy like him. full of secrets. he always let me think that he needs a good listener. but it's not a simple good listener. i bet he need a listener who can comfort him, trust and even safety.
am i right bout you? hope I'm wrong about my point of view of you. am i still a stranger to you?
the first thing i know bout him was, his a big fan of Jay Chou. from that moment, i tried to figured out why he likes Jay so much.plus, it's kinda random to see guys actually do have a idol who is a guy. some people might think it's really gay but some people found it was cool to have an idol in their mind. stat from that minute, I'd been searching all the profiles bout Jay and even listen more about his music. there's a lot of different point of view to his music and his person thru' the blog bout Jay that i read. some people don't get what's his music means;some people just love his music without a reason. but there is some people who just like to follow the way Jay Chou are.
from his music, is not easy to understand actually. unless, you have the same feeling as the writer of the song. but, after listen it again and again, you'll started to understand how the music flows and the meaning of the lyrics.it do take some time actually. this is what i get. anyway, this is my first time listen to music into a serious way. from his person, as everyone know, his a person who don't talk much. especially when come to his private stuff. he always want people to focus more into his music than his private stuff but the paparazzi just can't stop their curiosity. sad-ness~* i wouldn't say i know well bout Jay but i will say, the way of his music, it's really different from the other singer. no offence, i doesn't mean the rest of the singer doesn't do well in their music. i would say different people have different way of singing and music style. but the Jay Chou way, it's really different. usually the music (rhythm) that i listen are more alike the same. please don get me wrong, i don't mean that I'm standing up for Jay it just a feeling of mine towards his music.
enough for Jay, back to the person who appeared. yes, i would say in someways, his personality do like Jay in someway. he don't talk much as well. perhaps I'm wrong. he seems very mysterious. seems like there's thousand words hiding inside him. seems like there's alot of responsibility need him to carry. in some way, he seems like afraid of something. maybe i don't know much bout him.
playing a character of boyfriend, although it was a short time, can see that he actually take things seriously. can see that he actually need a person to be with who can make him feel safe and even to be trust. he seems tough outthere but can see his actually quite week inside him. his a guy who never tell people bout his problem unless you're a very good fren of his. but i bet it'll be hard to be a good friend of his. he do thinks a lot sometimes. but he always used the way of "avoid" to avoid the facts or to avoid the thoughts been appeared in his mind. but overall, i would say his a nice guy. he can be a perfect boyfriend. I'm serious tho.
playing a character of friend, actually, i prefer more being a friend. his a guy who actually do know how to tell jokes. his a friend who can talk anything you want but never ever ask him bout his private stuff.( what i mean was, just only friends talking.) once you did, the environment will turn to O Celsius. not kidding~ he doesn't like people ask him bout it. plus, he doesn't like to explain or even talk bout it. maybe I'm still a stranger to him. i do enjoy being his friend. it just that, i still doesn't consider as his friend yet. maybe I'm wrong. there's a lot of question that i wanted to question him but i cant. the only thing to know more bout him, i bet there will be only figure it out by yourself.
people ask me do i still have feelings towards him. i respond it by saying " nope". i have this strange feeling toward him. till now, I'm still confused what it is. but i can guarantee that feeling wasn't a crush or anything to do with love. it just a feeling of curious. I'm so curious every single thing bout him. the reason is because i never met a guy like him. full of secrets. he always let me think that he needs a good listener. but it's not a simple good listener. i bet he need a listener who can comfort him, trust and even safety.
am i right bout you? hope I'm wrong about my point of view of you. am i still a stranger to you?
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<3, jane