end of the series..

been thinking all these days. geting other ppl advice too. thinking deeply and seriously. i guess this my decision. i would not say this is my final decision cause things might change in the last minute + i duno wat will happen after these. now, me, i tend to give up on u. its tiring. i dunwan to waste so much time by just waiting for u hopelessly. day by day, the hope and faith its getting lesser and lesser. + u never give any hints to me. u want to end up all this crap so so much. cant blame u cause 1stly, i duno u well. the reason u gave it to me is so stupid + i hate u by giving me tht reason which is not a reason. you, hiding something. u always hide yourself in a small corner. dark and silence~ u never think bout wat other people feel. u said u prefer the gal say no to u rather than u say it to them. hey, this is so damn unfair. how would a gal say no to u when she's really in love to u? do u ever think bout tht? u just thinking bout urself. i understand there are lots of word which hard to say and hard to describe. but,listen, staright to the point is 100% better than u make a big round wit full of questions. since u take SPM as ur reason, i trust u.but other ppl will think tht is nonsence. haiz..although u said want it to be frens but hey look at us clearly. do we still look like a fren? do we actually tht close like wat u'd said? i can answer u. the answer is no,not at all. we aint good. we were just staying in our own life, selfish. u find me when u have prob. wat bout me? when i find u, u seems like ignoring me. is this wat call 'frens'? is this wat meant to be frens?is this wat u always want? we're like stanger, like duno each other at all, avoiding. this is so not us. this is not wat we usually be before all those thing happened.i want it back like last time so so much. like telling jokes.isnt it fun? isnt tht moment was so nice? wat u've been thinking man? why are u thinking so much? im wasnt thinking anything at all. but why u? gosh~ wat's wrong with us? this is so wrong, very wrong..

* you, the only one~*