I'm Faking Success

2012-01-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

its been too long.
i even barely remember..
the feature on your face,
the curve of your jaw,
the lines of your eyes,
and your lips.

even,
your height,
your broad shoulders,
your strong arms.

how can i even forget?
how could it be?

2011-12-29T23:23:00.000+08:00

christmas has come to end. a special day that i ever wanted to celebrate so badly. yes, it did end up really good and awesome. not to mention, wonderful! lol. anyway, i do know part of me has been missing. well, im sorry for not being 100% in the situation or in myself. i really dont know why. escape, to my cousin's, at least is a place where allowed me to take a deep breath and stop thinking nonsense. silly, girls brain is always full of shits. but guys cant be any better too, y'all fulls of craps. so i guess shits is still better craps cause it gets flushed away eventually. right, i have no idea where i get these idea from. forget it.

half more month to go. will be leaving this awesome land. yes, whatever happen here will just end here. there's no way life can be shifted into all sorts of place. live with it man. or more like, leave with it.

there's too many things to say but it just wont blurt. stuck at the corner of the throat. still not getting there, shall just leave it as it is. leave it.

let it fade...

"When you learn how to accept instead of expect,

you'll have fewer disappointments."

-the notebook.

falling

2011-12-28T20:55:00.000+08:00

it may be just the beginning of the journey,

but it has already comes to an end..

early christmas

2011-12-22T22:42:00.000+08:00

walking along the sidewalk,

somehow wish you were here.

tho summer is warm enough,

but,

with you around,

things will be better.

more like,

perfect.

a game was played today,

not gonna forget your existence.

i bet the people on the table,

definitely miss you presence.

sorry buddy,

that may be too many blames,

and hush,

on you.

but yet,

buddy,

things are still good.

your presence,

definitely will create more entertainment

and,

fun.

yes, i do miss you

not to forget,

everyone too.

to the far away of you,

merry chirtsmas!

knowing you,

is fortunate.

thank you =)

2011-12-14T21:44:00.000+08:00

inverted

just you.

2011-12-13T19:18:00.002+08:00

the conversation about you has been brought up ever since you left even till now. i really dont know why is this happening. is just weird for me to actually talk things about you. the weirdest thing is the topic about you wasnt really just about you. yet again, does people usually will only talk about you when you about to leave or already left? is that a sign of people missing your presence or is just more like a gossip? now it makes me wonder and anxious will the conversation turns into me right now? what will people talk about me?

well you know what, one thing has been change inside me is that, i have been living the way i want and let it roll itself. do judge me about it. i bet the answer you getting will def a big yes to a big good changes! heh! yes, i am proud now. and is freaking proud. at least i know who are the true friends and who are the people you should care and yet who will care for you too! lifes is unfair all the way.. so just stop measuring it and live it to the max with joys! =D

"We look at each other, wondering what the other is thinking... but we never say a thing."

- the notebook

2011-12-09T15:53:00.000+08:00

walking away day by day.

i know one day for sure..

things will be back into places again.

i know for sure one day i'll get to say,

"I'm used to it already".

just one day... i hope.

2011-12-07T20:28:00.000+08:00

i do not know how i actually end up right there. it sounded really crazy after looking back at it. shits happen sometimes but not this time. it just how amazing it actually turns out. i was really amazed but at the same time, is freaking crazy! no idea where did the guts actually came from. apparently no messed were done. i had enough, and there's no more turning back. still good enough that the last word wasn't said in the end. g'mate!

2011-11-08T17:29:00.002+08:00

you ran into my dreams again.
this has not been the first time..
is so funny it was all the random parts in the dreams..
but shush,
is weird enough..

all i see

2011-11-03T14:33:00.002+08:00

yes, finally i see it right now. I'm grateful you're being thoughtful but at the same time the 'hot-and-cold' kind of thing, it takes time.. avoiding is never a thing that i will do. i usually wants it to be more straightforward instead. but i guess it doesn't apply to all situation. the action, the words that has been done, is good enough for now. perhaps things shouldn't turn out this way. but i still appreciate it all because i will never able to meet someone like you. :)

"the only moment i felt different and wants to be different.. "

2011-10-28T22:31:00.000+08:00

the little incident that you came across few weeks ago, made me realize how important you are to me. 3 years of friendship is still counting. tho it was just a short moment, but it seems to be yet so long. all this time, i thought the friendship has been fading slowly.. but deep down, it still shines in there. the moment we had and the problems we gone through, is just how amazing things turn into right now. all i know is you have always been a very important friend of mine and will always be. do take care! i will never want anything worst going to happen to you because you gone through too much. you deserves a better treat. i know you'll be reading this. just so you wondering is it you? yes, is you emograndpa. =)

Just for you from me!

2011-10-25T12:30:00.000+08:00

we, gone through so much in our life. all the ups and down and left and right. after making a big one round, we found each other. the similar blood and soul that we have in our body. words cant describe how thankful and grateful i am to meet you. you, the best girlfriend i ever have. u know i know that we both still have each other no matter what happen. you and i know that nothing can tear us down and break this solid based of friendship.

live the life you want my girlfriend, live the life with your happiness.

you had suffered too much from the hard time of life. on this day, may all the wishes that you have made will come true. and do Dream Big! You deserve it all!

Happy 21st Birthday my dear Monwei!

all the best wishes to you..

and you know i love you always =)

ps. it kinda sounds like a lesbo letter. haha =p

Because is you

2011-10-25T12:19:00.001+08:00

you, slowly walking into my life..

you, slowly getting my attention..

you, slowly stealing away my heart..

how grateful i am to be here with you right now.

never thought that things will go this far..

here we are now.

on this special day of yours.

tho we're far apart,

but a sweet little wishes will bring us all close again..

happy birthday, my dear.

with all the loves and cares,

all the best to you! =)

to the one and only. <3

2011-10-18T23:40:00.003+08:00

only you will know better..

walkway

2011-10-17T23:44:00.000+08:00

i wish i could do this all over again..

but i do know i cant..

staying here made me realize how weak inside can be.

been avoiding for long enough..

trying to stand forward..

but,

staying behind the crowds still makes me feel better.

the maze shouldn't have drawn in the first place.

because in the end,

i know i'll be the one who trap in there for long.

2011-10-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

if could do it all over again,

i will not change a thing.

in fact,

i might not even speak all those things to you.

but one thing for sure,

i dont want to lose this friendship.

what about on your side?

to be who we are

2011-10-10T20:22:00.000+08:00

slowly walking in..

they hasnt left no matter how hard things turn into..

how i wish i could say this one more time,

but i do know the fact that there's no reason for me to do this again.

best of luck,

that's all i can say for now..

2011-10-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

great place with the best people..

all i want to do is just to have fun!

too much things to worry behind me..

2011-10-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

maybe a walk should be done here again..

Friday

2011-09-30T11:05:00.000+08:00

good weather to head to the beach today. but the laziness just keep hanging there and not moving it away. cant deny that there's something keep stuck into my head. been forcing myself hard enough to not think about it. some issues just cant be solve. leave it dude, just leave it.

a cup of coffee brings us to another stage of conversation. emotion feelings were drawn into the conversation as well. you said, is just being protective. another thing were in my head during that moment. thus, silence occur for 5 seconds.

sometimes is really nice to have someone to accompany by your side. but after you knowing the fact that the person will be there whenever time you want, appreciation level will then turns down. until one day, the person who you rely on so much just disappeared, you'll start crying till your eyes got swollen..

at least for now i know, that i do know.

-when everything is still fresh-

2011-09-25T09:44:00.000+08:00

A lovely photo of the day - The Great Ocean

look at the sky..

look at the sand..

2011-09-05T22:56:00.002+08:00

slowly stepping in..

slowly walking towards it..

tell me, what else left over there?

why not try putting yourself in her shoes?

you'll find something really amazing..

dont judge by her cover, but by her kind heart =)

she may be silly at times till the stage where you just want to give up,

but do hold on to it..

cause it definitely worth it..

2011-08-27T14:32:00.000+08:00

after looking back at it. realize there's many thing has been changed. the way it speaks, the way it act and the words it used. i cant recall what makes all these things change. the only thing i can remember is, is not necessary. today, thinking back bout it. i find it a bit stupid. how can things will be not necessary unless you just don't wanna do it. or the words were wasn't said through the true feelings. sometimes, it do really confused me. but knowing the fact that it may not be thing that you will do, still somehow wish it will happen at times.

finally she's back. i dont know what will that makes you think. sometimes curiosity will just make you make the first step. in a way, i wish you could find out the answer that you always wanted to but at the same time afraid things will turn into downhill after that. still trying to stop the thoughts in my head, but i just cant help it.

the new chapter

2011-08-07T13:12:00.000+08:00

finally things are settled down now. starting to adapt to the weather here so as the food here too. living independently doesnt seems to be so awesome as you can see on others. it takes tons of strengths and efforts in it. not to mention, no matter how independent you are, friends is always the impact and motives in your life. i am fortune to have all of them right now cause it doesnt make you feel any lonely.

still trying to make frens around. some of them doesnt seems to be that friendly here. was it us, asian, being not friendly to them? or is just the culture thing? still trying to figure it out. anyway, things so far so good here. been around the places in melbourne. but definitely gonna miss the St. Kilda Beach. is really a chilling and romantic place for couple. hope to get back there again someday. hehehe =p

have a nice day!! =D

2011-07-20T23:40:00.000+08:00

is getting too far..

starting to feel the distance..

i know i still have you..

but yet,

the distance may just kill everything off..

do tell me,

everything,

literally everything..

cause i wont be able to know, to sense..

or im just being too afraid.

*breath*

i apologize for being silly again.

do forgive

2011-07-18T22:18:00.002+08:00

arrived in Melbourne.

things were so different here.

but definitely something big missing in my life right now.

want it back not?

the tiny leftovers

2011-07-09T01:05:00.002+08:00

hello people!!! little updatesss!!!

will be leaving to aussie reallll sooon!!

next wed will be the flight.

hehe dont ask me how i feel now..

because..

i-dont-know is what im feeling right now..

had a little farewell here and there with the people around. and also tried something new these few days too!

the CHOCOLATE! i tell youuu... this is the most awesome powesome chocoloate ever!! the chocolate is just so smmoth and yummy!! and not to missed out the cheese cake too! if you are a cheese cake lover, you definitely will love it to the max! hehe =p

the layer cake in DREAMZ BAKERY! is a must to try. nice place to chill with your friends or even a date! cause there wont be alot pf people snatching seats with you or the noisy environment. the cafe just somehow make you feel hommy and is really a great place to relax! =)

Andrew's big 22nd birthdayy in Friday not Thursday!! haha i know is lame! =p the enjoyment was to the max on tht day. haha even had my very first double date thing! =p is nice to hang out with them! super funnn i tell youu!!

pastas at Kelana Jaya, Lousiana. not too sure is that how it spell. haha =p anyway, simple and awesome lunch with the love ones.

andddd jeng jeng!! karooke with the chick!! =D ouhh yeahhh!! =p

and of course!! the birthday girl todayy!!! the all time best friend. no one can actually break our 8 years friendship and still counting. we're tough i tell youu!!! hahahha

well, tht's about the little update that has been happening since after finals till now. and there is more! but blame me for being so hungry all the time when the food is served. so no photos were taken =( hehe anyway had a great day with all of them and shall look forward again when im back! love you guys lots! esp you-know-who-you-are! =)

hehehe <3

2011-06-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

what else can be done?

yes, i know.. is just a short journey.

but it wouldnt be the same for the long-term-grounded girl.

*breath*

is easy to say than walking away.

is easy to pull things than pushing it away.

can i do it all over again?

2011-06-25T00:11:00.001+08:00

2 more weeks. the clock is still ticking. dinner with the old friends today made me realize how much im going to miss this place. i even went to place where i'll miss the most. tell me, what am i suppose to do with it? telling it out or just keeping it all inside. emotional ending is not i always want it to be. the journey may not be long but is long enough to change things. who knows the world might turn up side down afterward. well, not literally.. *breath*

"It's not the things you said that hurt my feelings, it's not the way you acted; it's just knowing things can never be the same again."

- the notebook

i guess this will terrify everyone.

2011-06-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

let's do this all over again, shall we? =)

at the little corner

2011-06-19T00:17:00.000+08:00

can i have you with me again?

2011-06-14T22:52:00.000+08:00

you have always been the awesome one!

thank you so much my lovely..

Funny thing

2011-06-11T21:18:00.001+08:00

Read this thing from my sis's blog. is something relating to in which month you were born and something relating to your character.. hahahah

APRIL=SEXY
Suave and compromising.. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. Systematic.. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that’s caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize at
you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

dont know why does it sounds like an insult. hahha so funny larhhh =p

tell me

2011-06-10T23:12:00.002+08:00

Directly affected emotionally.

It made me begin to doubt the strength of my round. i don't wanna fail myself.

No matter how much i try, forever will be on the same stage.

How i wish it could be something different this time.

in fact, this is your life.

What can be done to change it. Face it, accept it.

Love matters

2011-06-05T01:07:00.000+08:00

"I don’t mind your odd behavior
it’s the very thing I love
if you were an ice cream flavor
you would be my favorite one"

- Mindy Gledhill, All about your heart.

No matter how hard people convinced you not to swallow those words that you wanted to say; No matter how hard people advice you to be straightforward; you can just see it everywhere, even the book of "how to be in a good relationship" already stated communication is the first criteria. In the end, the bad habit is still there hanging - preferring keeping things to your own because you find it not easy to just say it out as you're afraid to hurt a person's feelings and/or there may be a risk that the relationship will ended this way.

The girlfriend generally prefers to keep things to their own. Thus, there's a saying that women is a complicated creature. Yes, probably women tend to complicate things due to their sensitivity or insecurity. But in fact, all they want to know is an answer to a question. They do not like assuming, they do not like the feeling of doubt. These definitely have nothing to do with the level of trust. Is just women’s thinking. They are just weird which all the guys claim.

The only reason or perhaps one of the reasons a guy swallow their words is they do not want to cause a fight. A good thing huh? Maybe, maybe not. Men are a weird creature as well, claims by the women. At times, they can be much matured when solving certain problems, but at a certain things, they just can’t do it. But one thing for sure, what they need is freedom and privacy. Never ever try to cross the line as they will find you annoying. They can be very understanding too, but yet again, give them some time to figure it out, do not pressure them to understand you at the first second. As they said, women are complicated. Thus, some women may think why can’t guys just understand it?

Clearly shows that communication is a need for relationship as well as friendship. But do bear with women’s way of talking. They tried very hard to explain things they want to say, and do not pressure them too. Cause, the final outcome will be definitely they end up saying things wrongly and then the boyfriend will be pissed off. Tolerance? Yea, I guess a relationships need that too. Tolerant, broad understanding and a long conversation to keep things right.

"The chances are slim that you're reading this,

but I love you."

- the notebook

2011-05-25T00:15:00.001+08:00

is 12 am..

silent night..

only me, my text book and my laptop.

nope, not lonely at all
=)
because i know i have you...

'If you judge me on what I did in my past,

then you don't belong in my future.'

- the notebook

2011-05-23T21:52:00.000+08:00

Finally get the mood back to study. and yes, im like a superwomen now. first facing tonnes of assignment due on the same day, and then coming right up next will be the final exam. haha thanks to Starbucks much? oh well, nice chilling on the Saturday afternoon with some of the friends. is been so long i last went there. still an awesome environment and awesome drink. =)

His birthday falls on last thursday, awesome and simple birthday celebration. but the plan did not went well. haha first time failing on planning birthday events. somehow just doesnt feel so good. =/ well, is still a good experience..

liking the weirdos? -from wondermilk =)

time to say byebye!

2011-05-21T23:00:00.000+08:00

on this day, you really got me surprised. i was really touched over a title surprised that you did. finally, i got an answer from you. it may not be in a very direct way, but i already know. =)

thank you so much!

you got me teared that day!

hahahahha *silly*

21st the taurus babe

2011-05-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

Awesome day with the close one. yeap, is my very 21st birthday. dint get to have a big party cause assignment were all packed up. *breath* oh well, realize simple birthday celebration is more meaningful and memorable. having the close one around you and the simple finer things that happen in between will be just simply so much fun. =) thank you is all i can say.

The usual place for birthday celebration - Zanmai. hahha it seems like already became a norms in the group. =p

the all time best friend, Vanessa. and the friendship is still counting..

Yvonee, you'll be amazed over her attitude. hahaha =D

oh oh OH!!! and not to missed out this very special moment of birthday in my life!

staring with the very pretty face of mine happily enjoying cutting the cake, and thenn.....

i got smashed on the cake by Ricky.. hahhaha i was like OMGGG!!

hahhahahahhaHAHHA

seee ta-DA!!! this is the outcome.. damn sad right? hahhaha oh well, is quite fun actually. cause the cake were so cold when the push my face in. hahah yewww.. =p

*ehrm**cough* a little speech here...

would like to say thank you so much for you guys making this birthday happening. is really awesome to have you guys around on this big day of mine. =) really appreciate it. and you, thank you so much for coming. you really made things perfect. haha you know you who are..

as for those who did not made it, thank you, i already received your wishes and so sorry bout the late update in the blog. hope you enjoy reading it.

2011-05-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

on the 27th April,

amazing things happen.

hehe stay tuned

A guy and a girl

2011-04-25T20:29:00.001+08:00

came across a lot things relating to relationship today.

the very first thing was having argument with their partners.

that is really something serious. never actually think she would actually acted that way. guess she's really at her top of anger. haha piece of advice, really never mess with the girlfriend. dont be surprise girls will turns out like a volcano and then "BOOM" right in front of you.

yet another one is came across his blog.

all the love notes and letter he wrote in the blog. is really sweet and touched. it shows how much he actually care bout it and how much he loves her. he admits all the mistakes he did in the relationship and all the bad things he had done.

well, its funny how you gonna see things from this two person. for the guy, by saying "i love you" maybe enough. but what the girls wants is more than that. is sincerity that actually counts. as time flies and as time pass, "i love you" has become a sentence for a guy to escape from a fight, jealousy and etc. same goes to the word "sorry". been thousands times a girl forgive them but how many of the guy will actually appreciate all the chances that given. i guess never till they lose it.

2011-04-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

no, im not bored of it yet..

no, is not annoying at all..

no, im not sick of it yet..

in fact, i enjoyed all the moments..

with your accompany.

just like fun fair..

"People always ask me how I deal with things so easily.

The answer is I don't.

I'm just good at hiding it." - the notebook

2011-04-07T20:37:00.004+08:00

after so much of tolerance..

after so much of patience..

finally,

she burst.

no one knows what makes her this way.

only she herself knew.

she couldnt control herself.

thus,

*boom*

there all the the things goes..

yet, she still kept it quiet.

no one knows what happened.

only she herself knew.

"Say what you mean and mean what you say.

Nobody has time to sit and guess your thoughts
so learn to speak up."
- the notebook.

what you want?

2011-03-29T23:31:00.003+08:00

you have all my patience,

you have all my loyalty,

you have all my respect,

you have all my attention,

you have all my pride,

you have all my tolerance,

you have all my kindness,

you have all my forgiveness..

maybe not to that extent..

but seriously,

what else do you want?
why cant i just get something from you?

tell me, will you?

just say something to me..
dont know what to say is not a way of solving and escaping.

anything will do...

2011-03-29T00:08:00.000+08:00

the meaning behind is obvious..

but,

just not ready yet i guess..

2011-03-22T00:39:00.000+08:00

every single melody,

every single notes,

every single rhythm..

there's always a story behind..

all i know is,

i'm not giving up...

and dont hope to.

can i expect something from you on this coming special day?

coffee and cake

2011-03-17T19:31:00.000+08:00

rainy cold day.

finally get to escape from all the stressful work today..

had a small session with my good friend.

and of course, not to missed out my specially one who never fail to accompany me.

well, that's not the point of this post..

the coffee and cake session remind me so much of my another friend..

we used to have our small girl talking session especially with the cheese cake served.

coffee is my choice,

and tea is her's..

yes, i do mention before coffee will make me feel sleepy after that..

but i dint really care.

yes, miss those small little moments we used to have..

but too bad,

we're all packed up with our own busy life.

whenever i think of you,

a smile on my face will appear..

we shall meet again.

simple.

2011-03-16T11:49:00.000+08:00

i wanna capture down all the things we go through..

is just so amazing how we get this far..

i dont want to think about the end..

for what reason it doesnt help..

in fact, it will only creates more negative thoughts..

therefore, is best...

think of how to make this works and last as far as it can..

i'm just different than before.

2011-03-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

She was right, he is right
All about you..
Although I have been saying this is just you..
But in the end it still had only an excuse..

I'm not being harsh..
Perhaps a bit selfish..
No jealousy, just feeling empty..
What went wrong?

I do not know.

2011-03-09T00:16:00.000+08:00

What are words
If you really don’t mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they’re only for good times
Then they don’t
When it’s love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we’re gone

gonna admit this time..

yes, i am scared..

and at the same time,

im tired...

i just dont know how to let you know so that you would understand..

is just very hard..

her story

2011-03-07T23:25:00.002+08:00

Her relationship for a year which no one has really looked up at it. It is not her fault, but is the guy she met. People began to wonder, as they do not know how the relationship will last when it has just begun. No,this is not pathetic because there is always stories behind the scenes who no one would know better, except both of them. Yes, they soon found work things out, but it has always been a secret struggle.

This is her third year of the relationship. Like she said, the first year was more likely consider lovey dovey, the second year is sweet, sour, and the third year is the worst of all ..? But one thing is certain is that his feelings towards her. The only thing she was most annoyed is her confidence issues and it has been a major problem in this relationship. However, this relationship remains strong, as good communication and mutual understanding.

4th year stepping into 5th year relationship are rather more tough than the rest. long relationship already made her think his the one. too bad, things doesn't work the way she wanted. problems, jealousy, sensitivity is getting more worst as the dates continue counting. she doesn't want to let go yet because she thinks there's still a hope. but she must do to get rid of the pain and all the unnecessary thing as she would be affected. it has been several months where problem occurred and she had not found a way to do that.

“No one falls in love by choice, it’s by chance. No one stays in love by chance, it’s by work. No one falls out of love by chance, it’s by choice.”

2011-02-26T00:39:00.000+08:00

les choses sont tellement confus en ce moment..

no, this is not an emo post..

it has nothing to do with that.

sort things out,

it failed again.

maybe im just not good in puzzles or maze..

things going round and round..

when will it be the end of it?

*breath*

somehow just wish we could talk things out.

i dont like assuming as if i understands you..

because i cant read your mind.

2011-02-18T22:33:00.001+08:00

carbonara- The Garden

awesome outings with awesome people..

things are just so amazing on this day..

for once i felt something different after so so long..

hehehe

not gonna tell you what is it..

is fun to be mysterious at times..

certain people says,

keeping it mysterious is a way to escape from people questioning you too..

hahaha

who knows whether if is true..

only one person will know.

so just be it =)

2011-02-14T21:32:00.005+08:00

on this day, we shared something special..

the very first time of us celebrating this special day..

having simple and yet special dates..

having something simple and awesome meals..

was so excited about this day after you called..

were thinking bout what to get for you and preparing all the small tiny little surprises..

end up,

~~cancel all the plan A, B & C..~~

and go for the most simplest way..

like the thing we usually do,

go-with-flow..

yesh! cupcakes is the one that come across my mind..

cause it taste lovely and sweet..

reminds me a lot of you..

wasnt sure how much you gonna like all the little things i did..

but never mind larh!!

as long as there's something to remember of..
like the meatballs. hahha =p

and carrying the mood of enjoying this special day and nothing else.

hahaha ohwell,

of course at the same time hoping you'll like it..

thanks pillow,

happy valentine's day

2011-02-12T13:39:00.000+08:00

trust,

how many people can you trust in this whole wide world?

morning breakfast talk was awesome the other day..

finally get to know all the answers that i'd been searching for.

haha..

din know you were so scared and shocked when i confronted you last time.

at least things are all good right now.

like you already knows,

high schools life was hectic for me.

there's nobody who i can really trust and believe in.

how lucky i am to still have you guys around until today.

~~im lucky~~ i guessed.

but you said it aint just about luck.

is the personality and the effort that counts.

that sounds a little weird to me.

haha!

oh well, yet again,

thanks alot =)

2011-01-27T22:40:00.001+08:00

you've been wanting to find the right one..

the one who allowed you to depend on..

the one who loves you for who you really are..

the one who make you believe again..

the one who have faith in you again..

my dear, you will found it one day.

just open up..

let go the past..

for once,

be yourself again..

as one day,

you shall see..

things are different than before..

you have all of our love and care..

we're here for you..

-tiger teeth-

2011-01-22T23:44:00.000+08:00

i'd learned..

is just a matter of time..

you need faith and trust..

at the same time,

more spaces for yourself..

you,

make me wonder all the times..

but right now,

i just know.

sleepppp

2011-01-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

hee hee hee!! =p
sooooo cutteeeeeee!!!

miss doing that..

shall start doing it again..

heheheheh

hahahha

hohohohoh

hihihihiihihih

=DDD

YAYYY!!

2011-01-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

tell me..

will you catch me when i fall?

will you give me a hug when i need one?

will you be more open up to me?

you will never know...

things changed.

or,

is just me again..

-tht night-

the last but the beginning

2010-12-31T23:38:00.004+08:00

8 years of friendship was never easy for us. we'd been through so many things since high school till now. thank you for not giving up this friendship easily and of course, your faith in me. this year birthday was very special to me. organized by you and with all the people who i care and concerned the most. the effort you made really touches my heart.

knowing you is like seeing my own shadows. too many similar drama we'd been through. thus, only you and i know the best of all. you made me realize, im not alone, not the only one who have to go through all this mess. your comfort always make me feel better as you're always a good listener. hopefully is never too late to know you.. like you said before, time flies.

lucky to have your accompany throughout the whole uni journey. from classmate to close friend. what else can i say about you? you're just a wonderful friend who i ever had. whenever there's a problem, you're willing to help although at the same time you'll nag me. be more open minded is the advice you always give. do things that you are happy with is what you always asked me to do. and a smile on the face is what you always have which make me think things gonna be okay.

though we weren't as close as the time during college. but what make me surprised is we actually still have the connection in between. you're like a parents to me who still willing to spare out some time for me although how busy you are. like you said before, people walks in and out. you make me understand certain things wasn't as simple as you thought they were. dont be too naive and kind. thus, i appreciate all the things i have now so there wont be any regrets.

you never failed to tell me what is facts. we both may be real stubborn at times but that doesn't stop us from anything. having you around is really fun. with all the jokes you always made and stories that you always shared. a party without you wont be a party. that will be the best to described about you. and women! you really need to take care of your lungs. hoho! i really do enjoyed your presence.

im a lucky girl to have you around. and lucky i did not give up the very last chance i have. if not, things wont turn out like today. go with the flow is a thing we always said. and yes, it turns out good so far. not gonna think what would happen next cause just want to enjoy every single moment we have/had. thank you for being so patient with me and hopefully you won't give up easily.

2010 has been good for me. things were smooth and steady. not much dramas happened this year as this is what i wished for the last new year eve. thank god for that. just that, hope my mom will have more faith in me. this is what i always wished for.

2011, new year new hope. not gonna hope for anything. shall just go with the flow. just gonna take this as challenge and overcome it. that's the thing i want to achieve. haha 21 years old thinking? who knows.

lastly, Happy New Year people! have a great 2011 ahead, =)

i wanna..

2010-12-27T23:33:00.002+08:00

try out all different types of chocolate...

chilling with the cupcakes and buddies..

get the most delicious meatballs from IKEA..

walk walk at the Pavillion, KL with the beloved one..

chilling in Starbucks, Genting Highland..

having high-heels-tea with the ladies...

have a short journey to the beach..

and lastly,

make a trip to Malacca to enjoy the food and scene..

hehehe..

so wanna do all this things in my last 1month ++ holidayyy..

can i?

who wanna be by partner? hee hee =p

shopping spreeee...

2010-12-27T13:50:00.002+08:00

is monday nowww!! in few more days, will be 2011. hehehe =p cant wait cant wait. had been going shopping here and there. midvalley.. one utama... and later on, dont-know-where. somehow the shopping mood wasnt there. maybe due to the crowds all over the place and the unfolded clothes really turns my mood off. you know why? because is so damn hard to find something you like in the mountains of clothes here and there with all the different colours all around but you just wont be able to see the design of it. hehehe so kinda sien lorh.. too bad too bad.

nope, dont worry, this din happen to me at all.

somehow wish this would happen.

so nice to carry shopping bags here and there.

hahhaha

but nehhh, if tht really happen, means money flying away also..

hee hee =p

alright, im just too bored. =S

2010-12-27T01:17:00.001+08:00

dont have to question anymore..

this is the reason why..
=)

2010-12-24T21:57:00.000+08:00

pretty silver grey box,

with the white present inside..

tied with the lovely red ribbon.

on this rainy day,

i had a sweet warm lovely Christmas eve..

thank you pillow! =)

*hugs*

and

merry christmas!!

hope you enjoyed your day too...

my christmas

2010-12-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

remember something similar to this?

thank you so much..

it simply just make me smile no matter how tired i am..

your gossip girl?

2010-12-12T14:17:00.000+08:00

different faces..

different character..

people been asking what so nice bout gossip girls? cant really answer that question thou. maybe cause gossip girls remind so much of my high school life; money, attention, popularity, jealousy and lovers etc. except the fact that we're not so wealthy and dramatic like them. just simply like the way how they play the game of life!

although we somehow already know what's the ending gonna be or what thing might happen after one and another. haha maybe somehow just been through that kind of stage before. hrm, good experience? maybe, maybe not. it depends on which perspective you're looking from.

i'm not saying able to learn a lesson from gossip girl, but it's funny when you somehow just meet people who actually somehow act like them. and then you'll start giving them a nickname from the gossip girl. or, certain situation just reminds you so much like the gossip girl. hrm, maybe the effect of watching too much GG i guess.. at least, trustworthy and honesty would be a good lesson to learned.

haha oh wells oh wells, tht's about it i guess. perfectly answered why i love watching them? maybe not. but who cares. =p

2010-12-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

i'm just here..

2010-12-07T22:46:00.001+08:00

do you still remember? =)

2010-12-07T22:32:00.000+08:00

-silent-

2010-12-02T23:10:00.001+08:00

the rain is falling on my window pane
But we are hiding in a safer place
Under covers staying dry and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is.
Crashing down on in.
That I am on your side
Didn't I tell you.

I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

-pillow-

2010-11-29T22:41:00.002+08:00

有时候,

事情并非如此简单.

不要只看表面,

用你的心去理解.

也许有一天,

你会发现,

事情的不一样.

打开你的心房吧 ,朋友

dedicated specially for you.

2010-11-27T14:35:00.002+08:00

i miss those days.

Rain

2010-11-26T22:31:00.001+08:00

let it drip...

let it fall...

let it hit..

shall just let it rain,

it may be a better day after awhile.

2010-11-23T22:03:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna walk under your shades anymore,

i wanna do things my way...

can't i?

im thankful you guide me this far

im thankful all the things you did for me

im thankful for all the supports you gave

but,

you had done enough for me.

is time,

for me to figure things out my way,

for me to explore the world out my way,

for me to learn from mistakes by my own way

you're right i may be blur at time,

you're right i may fall easily,

you're right i may lost my direction easily.

but, like you said,

is time to let go and grow up.

you know how thankful i am.

think

2010-11-19T23:10:00.001+08:00

how many rounds do you want to go?

how far to you want to go?

how much do you want to carry?

why are you not even tired?

too bad,

i already am.

2010-11-15T23:49:00.003+08:00

what i want is just simple things from you.

i dont expect anything much from you..

support is all what i ask for.

am i asking too much?

they are so pwetty..

2010-11-14T21:18:00.001+08:00

im having cupcakes fever nowwww!!!

craving for it so badlyyyy..

dont you think their so pwetty and cute?!

hehehehe...

ignore me...

prolly im just too bored and have nothing better to do..

somebody please send me some of it!!

or just bring me thereeeeee!!

hehe

2010-11-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

after 3 weeks of suffering...

finally, exam comes to an endddddd!!!!!

mwahahaHAHHAHAH!!!

im free from exam,

im free from stress,

im free from tocturing myselfs...

yeahhh!! =D

but still lucky me...

i found a place to release my stress during this exam period..

is my very so called "healing place"..

hahahha =D

have you found yours?

do it all over again

2010-11-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

Hands over my head thinking,

'what else could go wrong?'
Would've stayed in bed,

how can a day be so long?
Never believed that things happen for a reason
But how this turned out,

you moved all my doubts, believe
That for you I'll do it all over again
All I went through, led me to you
So I'd do it all over again
For you

right from the beginning..

study

2010-11-07T18:27:00.002+08:00

my last second paper.

the toughest among all..

just wish me luck...

hopefully able to go through it smoothly.

i dont wanna make myself disappointed again.

the feeling really sucks.

2010-11-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

when certain things appeared..

at the same time,

at the same environment,

at the same situation..

have you notice the common things in between?

have you realize the similarities in between?

the same old feeling is coming back again.

i know im just being silly again.

chocolate

2010-11-01T23:54:00.002+08:00

"Chocolate causes certain endocrine glands to secrete hormones that affect your feelings and behavior by making you happy. Therefore, it counteracts depression, in turn reducing the stress of depression. Your stress-free life helps you maintain a youthful disposition, both physically and mentally. So, eat lots of chocolate!" Elaine Sherman, Book of Divine Indulgences

-a chocolate lover-

be brave

2010-10-31T23:58:00.002+08:00

we fall,

so we can learn to wake up.

we need fear,

so we can learn to be brave.

try looking back,

you'll realize,

you have make this far..

2010-10-31T15:46:00.001+08:00

31st oct 2010, windy.
sitting in my study room..
wonders..
am i putting too high expectations in it?
what i know is,
i just wanna try my very best for it.

tracks rolling:

Goodbye, Paperplane Pursuit

Tomorrow, Arvil Lavinge

2010-10-29T23:37:00.002+08:00

"I don't know how to feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day"

tomorrow- Arvil Lavigne

somehow,by just looking at you..will make me feel better..
the songs that you burn, make me feel like you're just right beside me..

thank you so so much..=)

2010-10-28T00:44:00.000+08:00

sunset?

sunrise?

2010-10-24T23:30:00.002+08:00

another birthday!!!

enjoyed every single moment on this day.

everything were in plan.

well, not really plan but yea.. hahahha =D

so glad that i get to witness this big day of yours..

hehehehe =p

some more get to try something different.

is my very first time to pasta zan mai.. =)

the food there is awesome and delicious..

hrm, but maybe due to the crowds, the service wasn't really good..

heheheh =p

some selmon thingi. but it wasnt mine. i ordered chicken katsu something.. it tasted really good and the portion is quite big. definitely worth the price. oh, and can you see the green tea behind there? it called special something green tea. hahha okay, im really bad in names. but the point is, the drink is really gooddd!! should give a try people! =)

so yeap!! this is his big 21st birthday!! =)

celebrated with 2 of his close frens. their really funny and nice people.

hahahha =D

thanks for bringing me along too..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ~~LAZYBUMP~~ KC! =D

22nd oct 10'

2010-10-24T14:07:00.001+08:00

finally, the birthday of the lion!!!

head to Zan Mai, Sunway Pyramid, to celebrate this big day of his..

and yea, his actually late on that time..

but its alright,

lucky we had our sits like after dont know how long of queuing and ordered food immediately..

cant wait any longer due to the hunger we had since morning till 3pm...!!! can you believe that?

hahaha well well well,

overall the celebration went well.. =)

shifted his car to another level parking lots..

hehehhe wanted to see how his gonna react when he find out his car is not there..

ahahahahahah..

but kinda failed.

think he kinda knows alsoo

but is still fun doing so!

lighted up candles on his car... =)

enjoyyyyy!!!

J for Joey...

people who attended the small lunch celebration.. photo taken by Vanessa. claims that she din wanna take photo due of the not so well dressing that day..


this is the fella! oops, i mean the lion. =)

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY LION!!!

2010-10-24T00:41:00.003+08:00

celebrating with someone special is just simply nice and awesome...
thanks for bringing me along to celebrate this special day of yours..
i may not be the most special person,
but i hope i'd made this day the most special one for you..
at least for now larh..
hehehe..

happy birthday pillow! =)

if its love

2010-10-19T21:36:00.004+08:00

i emmmmmooooouuuuuuu....
hahahhaha..
nooo im not!!! =p
dont be silly
my frens always says tht to me...
emo here and there..
hahaha guess i somehow got influenced by them also..
im not talking bout the emotion, is just the word.
hehehehe
how can i be emo when im a happiest girl right now?!
hrmm..
wellll.....
maybe got larh abit..
because my bloody finalssss!!!

oh oh, this song somehow cheer me up today..

"And if I'm addicted to loving you
And you're addicted to my love too
We can be them two birds of a feather that flock together

Love, love
Got to have something to keep us together
Love, love
That's enough for me"
by train

hee hee hee =p
yet again,
im not emo.
=)

2010-10-18T00:03:00.003+08:00

tell me..
how you feel...
tell me..
what you think...
tell me...
why....

is scary when people just keep asking you...
first was a statement..
and then turns into questions..
and then added with tons of why..

human are just so curious at times..
what to do..
pls dont tell me there's not even once you're not curious at all..
yes, im curious all the time..
hee hee =p

washing my car under the rain today..
it felt just so good..
letting the rain drops to hit your skin..
is refreshing and cooling..
i would want to do tht one more time..
yes, i will.. =)

-a random thought-

assignmentt timeee!!

2010-10-16T18:00:00.012+08:00

yoyoyo people!!! good day good day!!!
finally assingment is overrr!!! but, finals is coming. saded. =/
haha oh wells oh wells, little update for another in Starbucks!!
geee, think im kinda in love doing assignment in starbucks man. it seems like the feeling is there, the flow is there.. hahaha =D
this time we stoped at taipan. since empire mall's parking fees is so damn bloody expensive..
what to doooo... empire mall marrr..
heard tht they wanna make it like Pavillion..
ermmm, bit hard right?! fot that kind of placee..
hahaha who knows?! =)

see see see!
better environment afterall. altho the parking there is seriously damn pathetic. but is still worth after all.. =)

by just looking at them also stress..
strong team members..
why is it so?
their really good in thinking and all damn smart also.
tht's why!!!
wont be surprised if yet again they scored the highest for this assignment.
hahahaha =D

oh wells, their funny people too!! make jokes around, slack abit also.. hahaha when comes to taking photos, i telll youuu.. these people are crazyyy....

this fella, after effect of doing assignment. too stress dee. he claims that his group memeber is a big pressure for him. cause they expect things to be perfect and done in time...
woahhh.. stresssssss....

this women! funny thing is she kept asking me to take her left-side angle. said tht she looks better from that angle. hahahah =DD

this one arrrrr.... more like he puts pressure on me. when his doing nothing also stresss arrrr.. make me feel more stress alsooo.. hahahah he can just call you out from no where and say "STRESSS!!!"

named as a fair monster by my friend. he were talking bout he wants to be darker. monster! pls dont!!! you look better with fair skin.. suits you that way.. =)

hoho and oops! that's me larh!!
i know im dark. dont mention bout it anymoreee...
hahahehhehehe =D

oh oh oh!! and i also tried something new that day. taking silly photos on webcam. hahaha din know it can actually be that fun!! hahaha shall do that more often next time. really a good way to release stress.. hahahha =DD

have fun people!!

2010-10-13T22:27:00.004+08:00

assignment day! this time is like the hardest one. freaking take us so long time to figure one data one by one. so tiring and time consuming. really dont know how much left we need to do. din really have time to figure other things yet.

anyway, been staying in startbucks for assignment almost whole day. tried something different this time. from frappucinno to green tea freeze. haha =D it taste good indeed. it taste like drinking green tea ice cream. hahhaa kinda like it... not so heavy afterall! you peeps should try it out as well!! =)

im done for now, needa get my ass back to the ass. toodles!

i miss you

J.co day!

2010-10-12T20:31:00.005+08:00

cant really remember when was the last time i visit j.co and really enjoy every single moment there... today, things were just so frustrating. maybe is because of the super hot weather and im still somehow not recover from my sick yet. somemore been walking here and there. damn tiringgggg.....

finally, had a short date. hehehe =p really appreciate that he willing to accompany me altho is just a short time. is amazing how things turn out to be so calm while having someone beside you and enjoying your very own favorite donuts at the same time. the feeling is just so happy and warmy with someone who's there to joke, talk and tease.

kinda surprised when he said wants to get donuts from j.co cause i remembered him telling me how much he prefers Big Apple. so yea, "here got Big Apple or not?" was the reason he gave. somehow he gave me the feeling that he wants to know me more cause i used to tell him how much i like j.co's donuts. heheheh hrm, maybe this time is just a plain simply outing. hahaha... and yesh! yet again! he seems to like oreo alot. hahahha or maybe not. it depends.. =p

kkk, done for today dee... yesterday's problem were solved also. im a happy girl now! but still, stupid bloody assignment so much to do. *breath*

psss.....

you never fail brighten up my day!
=D thank you!

2010-10-11T21:54:00.004+08:00

have to admit that i complain alot soemtimes. wait, maybe most of the time. i. dont. know. maybe to some people im just expressing my feelings. but to some people, is just so annoying. i do find myself very annoying also. oh.my.god. yesh, i hated it when im like that.

certain things are meant to let people know but not so direct way. i just cant confront people which i dont know why. hrm, maybe if is my close fren, i would be more daring. but the thing now is, i dont know what's this "thing" call. suppose to solve this thing by my own. but i really dont know how.. my friend said is okay to just talk straight to that person. but i know his not that kind of guy who will actually listen. hrm, maybe he will but he might just counter back by giving some stupid excuses again. this is already not the first time. been alot times his doing this and i already hint him thousands millions time. haha okay, maybe not to that extent larh. just hopefully things will be settle by tmr. really dont like the feeling hanging there. hate it so much when is like that.. and the most important thing, he better be understanding. if he just noted for the sek of the same reason, im so gonna be pissed and dont know what else can be done man...

hahaha dont know why find this really stupid and funnyy. wonder if people really actually follow the sign and bang their heads there. hahahha =p
okay, im just being randoommm
you can ignore me now..
oh, fyi, pls dont bang your head on your com's screen. is really stupiddd...
hahahhahaha

geeee.... =S

2010-10-06T23:55:00.000+08:00

"I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far..."

-make damn sure, Taking Back Sunday-

2010-10-05T20:41:00.003+08:00

im not sure is just me all the things happen making me feeling weird now. i remembered there was once someone told me that, when things goes too smoothly, you'll be more afraid to lose it. yesh, im feeling like one right now. cause i realised i've been falling deeper.. afraid is the word that best describes it.

gee, im feeling stupid right now. was just feeling "go-with-the-flow" past few days and now.....?! =.=

what's the plan?!

2010-10-03T21:38:00.004+08:00

THERE'S NO PLAN!!!

today, everything falls perfectly.. i learned how things actually can just go with the flow. there's no need any plan A or B ahead.. just go with your feelings.. do things that you're comfortable with and flow with it. you realised the feeling is just so damn good!!! hahaha.. =D remember, go with the flow means no expectations, no nothing in your head.. =) enjoy!

"Flow with whatever may happen and let your mind be free. Stay centered by accepting whatever you are doing. This is the ultimate."
-Zhuangzi-

you're so dumb!

2010-10-01T21:05:00.004+08:00

OMG!!! angela foo jia yi!!! you can be known as the dumbest girl in the whole wide world mannn!!! seriouslllyyyy!!! why cant you just explain things in a proper way?! if dont know how to explain, then just shut the freaking mouth up then!!! my goodnesss!!! you can go freaking bang wall already mannN!! is not the first time deeee!!! how can you says things like that. now die dee lorh, people hurt dee lorhhh.. GAHHHHH!!!!! im really sorrryyyyy.. =S i dont mean it that way. hope you understands... sigh.

thinking alot

2010-09-30T23:06:00.004+08:00

i have alot things stuck in my head. im hanging in between. really dont know what should i do. insecurity is back again. okay, i know this sounds really stupid. at this time, really have to admit im having a "girl-thinking' again. and i hated to be like that. yesh, we girl think too much. things so far goes really as it goes.. not to say the way i wanted but somehow is like after all the bad things happen, you'll get a better treat. that somehow frighten me. im just glad that i have my friends all along.. yes, im very depending on my friend. i have to admit this, no way im gonna deny it. i dont know what will happen to me if i have no friends. esp this gang of people.. i'll prolly feel damn lifeless and no motivation at all. 2 years to go.. =)

'A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.'
-Elbert Hubbard-