christmas has come to end. a special day that i ever wanted to celebrate so badly. yes, it did end up really good and awesome. not to mention, wonderful! lol. anyway, i do know part of me has been missing. well, im sorry for not being 100% in the situation or in myself. i really dont know why. escape, to my cousin's, at least is a place where allowed me to take a deep breath and stop thinking nonsense. silly, girls brain is always full of shits. but guys cant be any better too, y'all fulls of craps. so i guess shits is still better craps cause it gets flushed away eventually. right, i have no idea where i get these idea from. forget it.

half more month to go. will be leaving this awesome land. yes, whatever happen here will just end here. there's no way life can be shifted into all sorts of place. live with it man. or more like, leave with it.

there's too many things to say but it just wont blurt. stuck at the corner of the throat. still not getting there, shall just leave it as it is. leave it.

let it fade...

"When you learn how to accept instead of expect, 

you'll have fewer disappointments."

-the notebook.